4:45pm
So I bought fabric in town to make a new skirt and chinese food…
14 work days to go…
Am I a fake?
I let out some frustration this morning. I shouldn’t have.
I do not know what I am doing.
I need help…
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10:26 (after sleeping for 3 hours)
sometimes i feel like i am a fake. a failure. maybe i should go find a corporate job. go sell clothes in a shop. who am i kidding? I can’t make a positive impact.
i need to see this as just an internship. just a job. all expense paid extended vacation to be exact. remove myself, my motivation and concern for poverty, environment, social justice and world peace….no on gives a rat’s ass. and there are more of them( who dont care) than us who do.
why am i here? but i spoke to nice lady today. ….she told me in plain words that she is unsure of my research objective…….go figure….i did what i do and talked a ton. i doubt she was convinced. i am not either….when i am not convinced i cannot progress.
why can’t I write a paper just for the heck of it. just good enough to walk across that stage in May….NOOOOO! I need to ask, ponder, explore, question. I need to effect change. I am curious. I am concerned. I want to know the root of the problem.
I AM SO FLIPPING TIRED OF HEARING THAT DEVELOPING COUNTRIES LACK CAPACITY…..DO WE….OR DO WE LACK WILL!? aka balls to tackle the status quo.
Finally ,my topic is….. On Capacity Building for Conservation: A Case Study of the Eastern Caribbean ( i think)….sounds like my blog title huh…kinda. atleast i am consistent.
( insert sesame street joke: today’s program is brought to you by the letter C)
